Sunday Evening

Well, I tried to take a nap today.  I kinda slept, kinda didn't.  I had another dream, another one of those "good dreams that I don't want to be having" kind of dreams.  I guess that I know the source of my sleeplessness now, as much as I hate to admit it.  I guess I just didn't realize how deeply Anne is ingrained into my heart.  It doesn't seem to matter what I tell myself, or even what I am thinking while conscious, when I go to sleep all that changes.  This sucks....

I worked on this blog basically all day today.  I added a framed in version of John MacArthur's sermons page, an automatically updating Just For Today page, and a picture slideshow that links to a Picasa web album.  It has been quite some time since I coded anything in html language, but it came back fairly quickly, with some help from other bloggers.  I hope to add some other relevant information, but I am going to wait until I know what I want.  I don't just want to be trying to fill up space.  The only issue I ran into in the final product is that the picture slide show will not display on mobile devices.  No biggie...

I got a bit of bad news, and I guess you could say good news today.  My oldest friend, the guy who temporarily sponsored me right before I moved to Pennsylvania, lost his job.  Then he relapsed.  The Lord has really been laying him on my heart lately, and I have been trying to get a hold of him to no avail.  Now I know why on both counts.  I talked to him for about half an hour today.  He is really broken up, but that is as it should be.  If it didn't tear us up, we wouldn't come back.  He allowed me to pray for him.  He has a daughter who is like 11 or 12 and is very aware of his struggles.  I didn't ask how she fit into the relapse, but I'm sure he will tell me when the time comes.  In the way of good news, he now has 2 days clean and just got back from a convention in Ashville.  I just pray that he finds his footing again.

That's about it for tonight, tomorrow is a new day, another chance to do the next right thing.  Oh yeah, I did some research on online seminary schools.  I'm thinking about going for my bachelors and maybe more.  I would like to go into Christian rehabilitation counseling at some point, and they offer Christian counseling as a course.  The school I am looking at is accredited, and the fees are extremely reasonable.  I can't afford it now, but God is big.

Father, thank you for the trials you put before us, I know that it is through trials that all the junk is burned out of our spirits.  Please hold the hand of my friend who relapsed, and guide him into spiritual strength.  Please watch over my children, and draw Anne close to you.  

In Jesus' name,
Amen

Sunday Morning

I slept horribly last night.  No bad dreams that I recall, but I kept waking up like every 30 minutes.  I am beginning to think that it may be physiological rather than psychological.  So needless to say, I am kind of foggy this morning.  I have been up since around 6:00, or I guess I should say that this is the time that I actually climbed out of bed.  I haven't even made my bed yet and it is almost 10:00.  Yes mom, you will be happy to know that I do make my bed every day.  There is just something comforting and clean about climbing into a made bed at the end of the day.  I don't know about other people, but I have to keep my environment orderly and clean in order to keep my mind orderly and clean.  If my room is a mess, then so follows my mind.

I am just going to work on my blog today, not necessarily posting, but adding some features like a photo gallery.  The gallery, if I am able to accomplish it the way I want, will contain automatic uploads from my camera, ALL the pics that I take, so it may be kind of boring, but I take a lot of pics and this will help serve as another backup.  I have 10 years of photos on a corrupted external hard drive.  I don't want that to ever happen again, so I backup through some free online cloud storage services as well now.  I am going to do wash, and maybe clean a little bit, but that's about it, it's a wrap...

Father, thank you that though I did not sleep well, You did allow me to wake up this morning.  Please help me today to stay focused even with a diminished mental capacity.  Please watch over and protect those I love and care for.

In Jesus' name,
Amen