My Welcome! page is tonight's Journal

My Welcome! page is my journal entry for tonight...  I put more of myself into it than I thought was going to come out, and I certainly don't feel like rewriting it for my journal, so click the link...  Come on...  You can do it...

I found someone with a truck to help me get a couch and love seat that the church that hosts my home group is giving me.  I didn't think it was gonna happen, but God stepped in.  I'm gonna go this afternoon and pick them up.
Not much on the agenda today, just a little painting.  I think that this afternoon I am going to try and write an article for the NA literature subcommittee on Triumphs and Tragedy.  I guess we will find out in my evening post whether or not I actually wrote the thing.  If I do, I will post it here under the Articles tab.

Father, thank You for waking me up this morning.  Please guide my steps, thoughts, and words throughout the day.

In Jesus' name,
Amen

One step closer...

I got my reply today from the SC Interstate ADSAP agency today.  I was accepted into their program.  Now all I have to do is to contact a certified alcohol and drug abuse counselor or state-certified DUI evaluator, provide the counselor or evaluator with the enclosed IADSAP Provider Referral Letter, obtain a face-to-face interview for clinical assessment, complete all education and/or treatment recommendations, instruct the treatment provider to return the enclosed Recommendation for Relicensing form to the ADSAP office, and sign a Release of Information form.  Oh yeah, failure to complete the program within a 2 year period will result in ordering a new packet with a new fee and a new driving record...  What a blessing!

It actually is a blessing, I'm just having a little fun.  There are always consequences to our actions.  I may be forgiven by God, but the State of SC wants a little more.  What it actually boils down to is an evaluation and 16 hours of classes, and attend a few NA meetings... and money of course.  I've got the NA thing covered.  I was actually expecting a lot worse.   From what I understand, the classes are either 1 full weekend (2 eight hour days), or 2 different Saturdays.  Something close to that anyway.  God is good, at least I am breathing.  I could have died in that motorcycle accident.  Come to think of it, there were many times when I was under the influence that I could have died, but God always had his hand on me.

We had a speaker tonight at the meeting.  It's funny (well, maybe not that funny) how our stories can all be so different, yet all be the same.  The circumstances and particulars vary from member to member, but a few things remain the same.  We all have gained and lost, hurt the ones we love, and finally come to a point where we just surrendered our wills and lives over to God.  I have yet to meet a member with any clean-time longevity that said he doesn't believe in God.  When I need a little "experience, strength, and hope", I know just where to find it; at a speaker meeting.

Father, thank You for the program of Narcotics Anonymous.  I know that it is a program given by You, and that it is a tool to draw the sick and hurting to Your healing embrace.  Thank You for giving me the opportunity to escape the seemingly unescapable grip of addiction.  Please be with my children and Anne as we navigate this thing called life that You have so graciously given us.

In Jesus' name,
Amen

God as we understand Him

Good morning everyone!

You know, I wonder if you just require less sleep as you get older.  I would have thought it was the other way around, that the older you get the more sleep you need.  5:30 rolled around this morning and BING!, I'm wide awake...  I have no reason at all to get up that early.  Even with my devotions, Just For Today, and journaling getting up at 7:00 still gives me plenty of time before I have to leave for work.  That may change once I get my license straightened out, but for now I have to ride with my son, and we don't leave til almost 9:00.

The JFT this morning talked about turning our will and lives over to the care of God as as we understand Him.  Many Christians have a problem with that aspect of NA, and in the past I was part of that crowd.  I finally, through examining my faith and observing others evidence of faith, came to the conclusion that even as Christians our understanding of God differs.  We all understand God differently.  As Christians our basic doctrine is the same, but we develop our understanding of His character as we go along.  And let me just say this; it is much easier to give the gospel to someone who is clearheaded than it is to someone who is in active addiction.  I have heard many testimonies of people who joined NA as an atheist, and after getting clean came to see the Truth of who God and Christ are, and were saved.

We are supposed to be moving from this house we are living in sometime soon, but I am kinda worried that the money just isn't going to be there and the move is going to turn into a mess.  Please pray Gods guidance and protection over this endeavor.  My life is just now beginning to stabilize, and it looks like it is going to become unstable again in a hurry.  

That's about it for this morning.  I pray that you have a blessed day, and that you grow closer to God minute by minute.

Father, please strengthen my dependence on You, and my courage to face the unknown.  Help me to walk a path that You lay before me, not one that I pave myself.  Please put people and circumstances in the lives of my children that will cause them to know Truth.  

In Jesus' name,
Amen