Really?

As I am going through my email this morning I came across a message from YouTube. Mike Tober has posted a comment on your channel.  "You are an ignorant fu____g fool."  This guy doesn't know me, the only video I have posted on YouTube is a promotional video for a rehabilitation ministry, and the only videos I typically watch are how to videos or Christian music videos.  I do not post comments to my YouTube channel, didn't even know I had a YouTube channel.  I am just amazed at people these days.  I mean, what are we, 12? It made me mad, but it was one of those kinds of mad where you have to smile, and in your head you are going "really?".

Gonna try and get this apartment finished up today.  It is a large one, and I wasn't able to work yesterday, so this one is taking awhile.  Highly textured walls of rolled drywall mud.  It was a nightmare to cut in.  

Father, thank You for waking me up this morning.  Please help me to see and do something about the sin that is still in my life.  Please guide my steps and words throughout the day and cause me to be a blessing to someone else.

In Jesus' name,
Amen 

Officially a resident...

Well I am officially a resident of Pennsylvania.  I got my state ID today, and they cut up my South Carolina ID.  Weird thing about PA though, the one they gave me has temporary stamped on it.  They will send me my permanent one through the mail.  Kind of a weird thing to do if you ask me, but they didn't.  

I got a haircut and did a little needed shopping, but that was about it for the day.  I didn't really get angry or sad, but I never really got happy either.  I guess it was one of those neutral kind of days that you just sort of plod through.  

That's about it.  I don't really have much to say tonight, so rather than just write to be writing I am going to watch a movie as I go to sleep.  G'night all.

Father thank You for helping me to accomplish things today.  Thank You for giving me work tomorrow.  Please strengthen me to obey Your precepts.  

In Jesus' name,
Amen  

Sometimes I Just Get Lonely...

Sometimes I just get lonely...  I have friends here, I have my son, I talk to my daughter every night, but sometimes I just get lonely.  It's like all of a sudden a void appears in my chest and I have nothing to fill it with.  I pray, and I wait.  I know that it will pass, but it is there none the less.  I know God will use it for both His glory and my benefit, but sometimes I just get lonely.

Tomorrow I am going to go find out what all getting my drivers license back is going to entail.  My main concern is the cost involved.  I know that back in SC it would have cost me around $500 to take the ADSAP course.  I know because I've had to do it before.  As I recall it was a fairly drawn out process, like maybe a month or more.  I am praying that it goes a little quicker than that here in PA, and I am also praying that it is a little less expensive.  I really need my license and a vehicle, but God knows that so I am not worried.  I know that he will light the path; all I have to do is follow.

I splurged tonight.   I broke down and bought a shoe shine kit that contained both black and brown polish, 2 applicators, and a brush.  I actually took quite a bit of time considering whether or not I could afford such an extravagant purchase lol, but I do have to watch every dime.  Literally.  I save all my change in a big water jug.  I have a pair of brown boots and a pair of black leather shoes, and both are in dire need of some polish so I gave in.  

I haven't started the NA paper yet, but I may start putting an outline together when I get finished with this post.  I have a basic context, but I don't want to go overboard so I am trying to come up with a way of saying what I want to communicate in the least words possible.  That's not an easy thing to accomplish because once I start writing, if the thoughts are flowing, I could end up with 2 or 3 pages before I realize it.  I guess I can always chop it up after I'm done.

Thats about it for tonight.  Tomorrow is another opportunity to do the next right thing if The Lord sees fit to create another tomorrow.  

Father, please heal my heart, help me to get past the pain and regret that so contaminates my mind.  In You I am a new creation, please help me to act accordingly.  Father, I lift my son up to You tonight, that You would draw him to You and help him to see his need for Your guidance.  I ask You tonight Lord that You would bless all my children with a hunger for the knowledge of You, and the redemptive grace that You paid so dearly for.  Thank You that you are sovereign, and that I don't have to worry about whether or not you really care about me.

In Jesus' name,
Amen 

My Welcome! page is tonight's Journal

My Welcome! page is my journal entry for tonight...  I put more of myself into it than I thought was going to come out, and I certainly don't feel like rewriting it for my journal, so click the link...  Come on...  You can do it...